Entry for October 14, 2006

Brokeness. That is what leads to true peace. Brokeness and surrender. God brought me out of my brokeness, restructured the pieces of my life to create something new, and placed me on His mountain, to make my life a witness to others.

Then He called me to surrender. Daily I take it back from him, and daily I let it go again. He knows what to do with it better than I ever could. He created my life, He planned every moment of it. "I know the plans I have for you...to give you a hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11).
I pray this brokeness on those I care about. I pray that God will break them, shatter them, reveal Himself to them in awesome and incredible ways, so that His Truth is clear, His presence cannot be denied. I don't pray it because I want to see them broken, bleeding, hurting, and alone. I pray this so that God can pick them up, rebuild them, set them on His mountaintop, and use their lives as a witness to many. I pray it so that they can know Him in ways they never thought possible. I pray it so that God can bring them to this same place of surrender - surrender of hopes, dreams, and desires into His hands, with no expectation for anything in return.

I pray it so that they can know Him, love Him, experience Him, and know the deep, lasting, indwelling sense of peace that I have received. No matter what life brings my way, I know that I will be okay, my husband and children will be okay, because God has given me his Perfect Peace. He is my Source, my place of Refuge, my Provider. I have nothing, am nothing, and know nothing apart from Him.